personal diary! - 7/24/26
well i was thinking about it and wouldnt a shitload of ai's problems stop if we made it stop genertating pictures? i mean seriously everything ive ever seen come it of it is bad. dont you think its stupid how we let it act like a human, write like a human, and make "art" like a human when its truly a dangrous piece of tech that shouldnt have a conscience, its just wrong to watch people play god. its wrong. mainly people under 40 are pretty against it, i mean most of us are gonna be the ones well, stuck with it. yet it is a pretty tied agrument. getting rid of ai is a huge goal that might never happen, hype dies down of course, but this isnt a trend in any kind of way, no this is something thats being forced on our socitey entirly, by people who dont face the consequenes. ai doesnt help in any way, taking the easy route isnt always the best of course, and i mean i dont mind making things "easier" just this isnt the way to do it. no not the way at all. like how stupid is it that people vent to these computers, with the same automated answer its not gonna help them in any kind of way, just get real help. talk to real people. go outside. fuck if u do it ill do it 2. make healthy conections even if its online. show "them" that "they" should know how to stop taking our rights from us, listening to our communaties, our lives, our art, our actions, and stop holding everyone from the real future we were promised. this futures not a profession rather than a setback. i hate the lies they tell us, how the rich rummor to us a "better reality" when its just one where they dont exist, a reality where people help eachother, a future as a community not a robot controlled socitey led by the rich and forced on the rest, no quite literally the lamest distopian world that we live in. i wish there was more i could do to help, and everyday i work to that goal. everday you can see history being made, not the good time id say, you see people in cities barley looking at eachothers directions. we are all commsuned by our phones its almost disgusting, if someone wanted to end our socitey they probably invented phones. also anyone else miss origanailty? no copied words, unfunny memes, old things that are so outta style. especilly in phones, when steve jobs dropped the iphone every other company wanted to become just like it, and every company lost its spark, its personaitly. in the 2000s-2010s anyone who you would meet that had a phone was its entirly different and even meeting someone with the same phone was rare, at least i heard i wasnt really coniouns lol (cant speellzz) and you see that with everything nowadays. with ai everyone and everything has become more boring, at least the general crowd, most young people are actullly taking a stand and fighting with their own orginaitly from certain decades, like most people in the 20s have digi cams, and most highschoolers dye their hair and who knows they go outside and hang out. what im saying is some of socitey is taking a stand of this boomer ai craz with their own unqiue style trend, and you could maybe find people with the same interests, music, art, fashion, film(s), smaller niches, stuff like that. what im saying is through this dark corrupt world you can see people revoolting in such small things like that, even if not intened. also before i end i wanted to speak on gentertive ai, its kinda scary duncha think? i think its a cheap way of "them" trying to show off ai to the world, but truly it shows how bad ai is for our socitey, i mean ive never seen something good come outta ai, maybe some opions? but honestly why dont people just come up with the words to support their thoughts? what ive seen that mostly crepps me out is the fake humans or the really bad stuff people have been generting with it, its been ruining peoples lives. its like were all tiny white mice in an experment, stuck in a forever cage by the rich trying to play god. and where did manners go? yea boys have been harssing women for years yet socitey takes them under the wing, also condoms being free but not pads? how sardonic do you have to be to see people die and suffer everyday yet do nothing about it? the chances of us even being alive right now are insane, and the time we waste, not even being a helpful world takeup. moral of the story is, dont fucking use AI dummy and dont waste your previous time scrolling that only contriubites! instead explore niches, meet new people, take care of yourself, love yourself, learn more, go outside even if you just take a walk. and as always love you cookie munchers and cookiesters! appercatie you getting this far, might delete this.
jul i think 21st? 26
its very abnormal to me that all of my hard work gets since, that when i post something people actually sees it, like this blog for example. im usually kinda on the sidelines, watching people argue and talk,and when they share their opions i just pick a side yk. its werid to be like the.. i dunno um the opinon people follow, the words people look to. i never thought my thoughts could mean something. at the same time i know im not special, there are thousands of silenced voices throughout the world that with the chance to speak, their voices would blow me outta the wind. i guess you never really know who you pass by on a day to day, hundreds to thousands of people with opinions better then mine that youll never hear. thats why if i had a superpower id be able to mind read, know what every person thinks, of me, of the world, now that would be awesome. id like to read a comic book of smth like that or better watch the movie. i want the movie to be like a 2000sie vibe tho, intentional lighting, 1 well known actor and 5 nobodys that the movie sprouts there career. it be interesting to watch every person one at a time, though this indiviallity is lessing by the day, or is it increasing? now more then ever i think the people u see on the day to day have more color in their hearts and what interesting takes people online have, i love to see this in a society that not many want to be in anymore. but my biggest worry is that ill blow it, ill somehow in some way blow it. but i mean imagine the things i have to see to say to do, that ive avoided because im to scared to try. so ima try to post a youtube video, i hope its not a mistake, and i hope its not something i abandon. i plan to make short videos, nothing special. 2 mintue stories i have on my basic life i see from the sidelines. i hope the video does well, i know many things on youtube that get sucessful now are brightcolors, thousand dollar budgets, fancy stuff, stuff i dont think ill ever get to. i hope one day to at least reach 1 suscriber, to me one person that listens to my videos, looks forward to them, and loves my videos and is inspired my them, and would do anything too know wwho makes them. yea just 1 fan. then ill morely focus on this site. it'll be cool to have a website and a youtube channel. only thing is i already tried the yt thing a very long time ago and i love the first video to much t0 get it off my chanell. cant wait to show you all the chanell once im truly prowd of it.
jul 19 26
today the world cup final happened and boy oh boy was it good, tbh i was only watching the world cup in the first place was to support my own country, but ever since the big egypt loss with argentia i needed to at least see what happened in this final. in the even of argentia losing i needed to know what would happen. i also watched the norway vs england game and the highlights of a sperete norway game, lol after egypt loss i became a norway fan. anyways seeing the game today reminded me that even though its fun for us all to imagine these games are fair, their truly not. most teams making it to the finals or semi finals are all usually eurpean teams because they r the most well funded, most teams barley have a chance againist bigger teams like that because we barley have enough funding to play. i hate how eveything in our world is unfair and extremly politcal. im so happy to see that spain won its nice to see a fair win, some say it was scripted i wouldn't be surprised if it was, i just can hope it wasn't.
jul 15 26 ugh toay im at the beach, i love the beach i guess. taking photos with my digi-cam and walking around is soso fun! i read this beatuiful blog posst about my latest blog post, i was surpirsedd to see anyone even reads my blog let alone cares about what i say. honestly i write these pretty randomly so i didnt think my words could mean so much, ive been chilling at the beach a little longer now its 6pm sun doesnt set til like 8:30 so its soso sunny and bright. i like to think of myself as like a vampire barley surviving this horrible punishment we call "hot girl summer" but when reading through te blog post it called me.. ann otaku. im pretty sure thats what i am a total utter causul otaku! im glad i finally fall into a catrigor. 8:49, finailly heading home from the beach and guess what im sad again. my cousin went on this band trip with his band and hes band friends, and one of them i got super close with. i was only talking to him and if i wasnt i was in the corner being quiet, i know everything about him i mean line after line all i did was talk to him. he wouldn't ride with me, and didn't rly ask me questions. before the day ended we traded favorite bands and songs. we both liked the same bands! can u believe that. it was weezer, he was into more maianstream songs im rly into songs many weezer "fans" dont know but thats ok. i gave him my favorite album, id never told anyone my favorite album and gave him each song thats a must listen. i asked my cousin today do u know if he ever listend to the album? and he told me he said i was annnoying thats the only time he ever talking about me. i feel pretty sad, of course he thought i was annoying. after all's said and done im just annoying. what else could i be. it remined me of many weezer sings, my favorite album is the delxxue blue album, so deep of course my favorite song is jamie. i used to think of it everyday. i cant believe it didn't make the album. when i first met him i used think of the song across the sea, yea i also would listen to his favorite song everyday. i hated that song but, i dont know. might add a cooler well vibe to this blog page i think its a little cloudy. if u want to u can read the "deep" and heavily inspring last blog, right under this. nice tto know people actually check this website out, and as always love u fellow cookie munchers and cookiesters hope u contuine to check my webpage and ur comments words mean soso much to me, thank u for the support argo.
jul 15 26
help i have soso many stamps i think i might have to make a resoucres page and a whole sepreate stamps page because of how many ive collected oh mi gosh guys i actually have spent HOURS just getting stamps someone get me OFF this computer, uff i have work to do. gonna contiune websurfing 4 now tho. im so tired but i wanna make it to 6am (currently its 2:44am) watching joe bart and i cant stop laughing LOLZZ hes s00oO0o0o funny ahhahahaaaahhh imsotired & sleep diprived lol
jul11 26 i was feeling very sad. today i was walking around san diego, my mom took us there because my cousins from outta country r visting, and i felt so.. sad. i had no faith in humanity, myself, the world, and everything in it. i felt so lost, i had just wanted a sign. when i got home i was looking on youtube for a good video to watch while taking a mini break from coding. the video was called, ai is the new renessiance or smth, and it was one of the drawings on whiteboards thingies. i watched it. it gave me hope again honestly. bascailly he went into detail how once we all get over ai trying to act human, and trying to create art, it will do the tasks that humans dred, de-humazing tasks that people do instead of creating art, exploring creativiey. he even explained how people are refusing the AI slop and revirting to old tech, talking to others,meeting similar people, exploring hobbies, and how to stop wasting time doom scrolling or whatever. i dont explain it that well which is why i sugest u watch the video i saw, its by After Skool and titled How Ai Slop will Spark the Next Human Renaissance, its only 10 minutes and so so life changing. i now have hope. the first thing i did, was feel i had to tell someone of this in some way and since i dont have many friends im here, writing this. i also realized new things about myself, like the why in myself. im pretty happy aswell because i find that the online websites and stuff have such an incredible comuntanuity. ive always wanted to be apart of things. i wish i could tell everyone. i wish i could show everyone theres hope. good luck fellow cookie munchers and cookiesters, listen to happy music and will watch the supergals episode when i have time!! love whoever is reading this and GO SIGN MY GUESTBOOK!! i lyv 2 read them!
jul9 26 hey!! today i just hit 1000 views on my webpage, thank you guys so much!! im a little worried about myself i mean i made a whole website in a week and 2 days. i think i feel as if theres nothing more i can add, but everytime i say that i know theres something i can do. i hope you guys like the site<3!!
jul8 36 hi guys. finally blogging about what happened during te argentia vs egypt game. i was so exitced, i dont know alot about the team, i knew they were world world cup champions for the last few world cups, and are incredible players, and i heard they were the 1# rated football team so far. ive never actually seen them play i did see the cappa verde game, but i wasn't watching it it was on in the background and when i did focus i was watching cappa vedre fricking almost beating them! i was cheering so hard for cappa vedre to win but last mintue agentina got a point and clutched a win. i had also heard messi was an "amazing one in a lifetime player!" i was so exticed to watch MY country even get this far! they start the game strong, i thing they knew this is hardcore team and studied there plays. watching egypt play was lifechanging, i haven't seen them play this good it was so increible. when we had scored 0-2 everyone and there mother was freaking out. egypt, a team that had never even gotten this far in the world cup, could've actually.. won this game? and honestly i was really surprised to see the argentia team wasn't.. as crazy good as i heard they were, and crasier that we could even compare. then it was close 2 the end of the game argentia scores a goal. then another, which neither were double checked or anything. whats strange is they are constanly hurting players as there playing yet getting no penities, yellow cards, or red cards,everytime egypt even touches an inch on there players they get yellow cards. things really went wrong when the end of the game was near, egypt scored a goal, finally the tie should've broke. they checked it a million times and decided. nope didn't count. even tho ball touches the end of the net. it didn't count. (im not sure if when that happened but it seemed near the end) then only a few mintues left and messi i think scores a goal while TRIPPING mohammed salah. yet no fuel was handed to him and the ref started to act very suspicus. in a way that in the 10 whole minutes salah was begging him to check the goal, because he obvi tripped him even the commnturs knew it. guess what. SALAH GETS A YELLOW CARD! imdently our coach knows this isn't right. this world cup they added a new symbol that coachs, refs, and players can use if they suspect a racist play, it means you must stop the game AT ONCE and investgate into what happened which if it went through hom hassin (coach) would've been the first to use it, BUTT the ref saw this as him insulting messi and. GAVE THE COACH A YELLOW CARD. when i was watching this jaw was on the floor and i didn't believe they won. because... they didn't actually win the game!! news afte rthe game has surculated of many argentian fans after the game harssing egyptian fans, and what annoys me is some people say us egyptian fans are jealous of there win. everybody seems to be morly on our side but its honestly really annoying. that was our win. tbh i went into the game thinking maybe egypt will lose, but i didn't except us to lose because of smth out of our control. it is clear to me they wanted the big famous team with a famous player to win. messi had 10 free shots and missed almost all of them! i dont want to be rude, i love argentia, i love there culture and people, but that game was completely unfair. also i heard messi has blantly hurt ppl in other games as well with no fuels. (idk how 2 spell) well anyways this pissed me off because its so rigged and just not fair.
jul6 26 today i spent the whole day coding and learning about code, i actually couldn't sleep so im techinacally writing this on the 7th but its fine. i added a TON of changes 2 the site, and tried a new template, while i was figuring it out i.. deleted all the OG code of my site!! ive redone that dam site at least 6 times and im so sick of going back to the orginal templete code recreating my webpage AGAIN!!! so i was like its wraps we r doing this. i have learned some new things with this templete, but i have a lot more creative freedom in the way that the templete is more my level. the other one was FANNNTASIC it was incredible, only problem is when i would add smth like a new code, it was so confusing to fix and i would spend hr's trying to fix it!!! but this one is VERY empty and more the vibe i was going for, so im gonna give it a chance. also im redo-ing the art to make it look like me, yes fortunely im a egyptian, black haired girl with clear glasses, a funky style in clothes, a moe artstyle, and a sick haircut. tmrw is the egypt vs argentia game and if ur not into soccer to much... argentia is a #1 ranked team, the most famous, world cup winning team.. and egypt hasnt gotten this far like ever. at least to my knowledge. i did watch the capa verde game with argentia, where capa verde.. a VERY small island, actually almost beat argentia on a clutch. egypt beat austirella on penitly, i think after they lost the first kick they highkey gave up. egypt has improved so much, i can tell they try to tire out the other teams ALOT, but they've been practicing for sure! exceppt mohammed hany.. lol no hes a good defense. ANYWAYS they seem to have improved so much from the last game, so i entirly reconmende to watch the game ( starts at 9am) or tune into the score because it will be intense!! also mohammed salah playing with messi is gonna be the weridest thing i will ever see. GOO MASR!! will send updates!! love ya's cookiesters!!
jul 4th 26 today spent the day in vegas for the 4th with some cousins who are from outta the country, we did soo much! lots to talks about!! ok we wake up around 11pm to check outta the hotel while we r packing we're watching the canada vs morocco game and super sad canada lost, but glad morocco contiunes to play on as one of the last mideastern countries in the game!! i should start blogging about soccer 2 shouldn't i. well lost of walking, we visted new york new york, m &m store, hershey's store, titanic musseum in luxur, and tons of other things. when it was around 7'o clock we tried moving to this bridge sorta to like see the show cuz we were super far, they ended up kicking us out because it was still an hour to the show, we waiting on this stone area next t some dirt and sat. i slept then woke up at like 8:30 we realised that even if we got to the bridge it was way to crowded, (this after trying to get there and alomst falling of the stairs. sry this is hella long, we end up walking super far just to get a glimspe of paris, if u dont know many of the strip (main bright lights vegas) is recreations of famous landmarks, paris is just a smaller effel tower, with brightlights, a casino that pretends your in a cute little town in paris, outside they even have some of the fountains and stuff, they do this with many many places of the world, just slap it in vegas . anyways so when the fireworks finally start we end up seeing them on the other side, im not sure if they were js placing it on different sides but for 10 minutes straight everyones yelling, fireworks are up in the air, people are pushing, it was honestly HORRIBLE!! like after a crowd of screaming, beeping car horns, and so much people break out. in vegas they have so much ppl just blasting music on the streets, plus the stores blasting there music o the inside and outside, and the crazy amount of ppl, omg it was so bad. also vegas is so dirty so much cig ashes everywhere, so much sm0g!! ugh then we had 2 cross a bridge to get back to the place we parked, was packed. we even waited a bit before going in and it was still so so so packed! 20 minutes and we barley moved an inches in the crowd, i was soo tired, when we were about halfway through the crowd, a lady started non stop yelling "LETS MOVE IT GUYS CMON WE DONT HAVE ALL DAY!! WHAT U HAVE A PROBLEM?!" honestly she was saying what we were all thinking, ik everyone was making fun of her but personally i have respect for her speaking her mind, even if she was rude about it. if you cant tell this is my first july4th celebration in the states, every year i would usually go to egypt the whole summer, freshen up my arabic, spend time with my grandma, meet my very distensed family members, and get recultured, unfortunly my gran gran recently passed in march so this year my mom has really held on buying the tickets, if we end up going itll be the very end of summer, hopefully for 2 weeks. so yea usaually id be sleeping next to my gram grams and waking up early with her and having this mideastern dish that i abosutly adore, but instead im at this stupid fireworks show in vegas. i dont want to be here. i wanna vist egypt, just for a little time. but mostly i miss my grandma, i hate the modern state of america (such a beautiful places but such corrupt leaders and influances), and i wish i aprecatied her, just a little more.
jul3 26
im visting vegas for a fire works show, today we stopped walking around to get some pizza LOL! they had cookies but mAjor overpriced. so i was waiting in the line while the argentina vs cape verde game was about after halftimee and i really wanted to see this game, but the line was kinda long. as im waiting theres this dude his girlfriend and there friend who are all dressed in swimsuits which is very common in vegas (ive come to learn). ok ok liste they are arguing if he should get pizza or like not cuz the 3rd guy might be lactose. middle of them agruing the guy turns to me explains the situian but as he is hes friends are like "bro stopp leave her alone" and so the guy did. im quite shy i wanted to reply yet i couldn't find the courage. in my head tho i thought, usually i would so maybe dont do that, but i mean this guy is a dude in a swimsuit in a casio in vegas deciding if he should eat pizza! who fucking cares man. eat the pizza, like do you understand how lucky this dude is? who fucking cares if ur lactose learn smthh new! i mean my dude pizza? just do it. i never ended up saying that tho, but from that i thought what if i said everything i ever wanted to?
so im gonna start #YOLOing life. or at least i plan.
jul2 26
worst summer of my life or the best?
every summer i find smth new about myself, this summer i think its gotta be coding yet ive been inside with nothing to do and still havent studied a bit
i know ill regret it and the grade above is like major hard but i just dont know where to start, it feels like times moving and i cant controlit or stop it and maybe thats just life i guess